About a year ago I posted this. It sounded like a very doable New Year's Resolution. It wasn't. I am dumber. 12 months later and I am certain of it. Not for lack of trying, but for lack of retaining. I guess I was just not cut out to be an intelligent adult. I'm not upset about that. I'm coming to terms with it. But what I am upset about is not keeping my resolution.
The point of a New Year's Resolution is to motivate us to better ourselves. So why do they always make me feel inadequate and pathetic. Perhaps if I would actually stick to them and follow through, the resulting feelings would be quite different. But this year I just don't feel like setting myself up for failure. So I am taking a preemptive strike. I am making an early resolution for the new year: to NOT make a New Year's Resolution.
My resolution for 2010 is to just be. Be content just being me. Who I am. Right now. I am all about trying to better yourself and not becoming complacent or lazy, but 2010 will be a year of acceptance. I think in our haste to improve our lives, we forget to cherish who we are and what we have at this exact moment. We are always trying to move forward, be better, progress. Nothing wrong with that. But I get caught up in that and I forget, and this is as cliche as it comes, to live in the moment.
So no trying to be thinner, no longing to be wiser, no attempts to become richer. No desire to keep a cleaner house, to be a better cook, to learn a new skill. I don't want to better at anything. I want to look at myself in the mirror, my life as it is right this very second and I just want to be.
And this may very well be the hardest resolution of my life.
8 comments:
...and you just might learn more from it than all the "trying to be better" resolutions in the world! It's reverse psychology, or something like that.
Seriously, think about it. Think how much we miss by being worried about improving ourselves constantly. I think this will be your best year yet!
And I want a full report one year from now on all the fabulous improvements you made by not improving.
I love it! I have been so overwhelmed trying to do and learn so many things right now. If its overwhelming-its not worth it! Just enjoying the moment. That's what it is all about.
Amen.
I LOVE Resolutions! I think you should break the "no resolution", resolution. Being cotent is an admirable goal, as I too struggle with being content. (Hence resolutions every year.)
ok, girl, throw yourself a bone. resolutions suck because they only ever make us look like lazy donkeys. i've NEVER kept a resolution. acutally, i've never even MADE a resolution knowing i wouldn't keep it. i guess i'm a lazy donkey...
I agree. This is my "resolution" this year too. And you are right...it is the hardest thing to do. Even harder than trying to keep up with that "I'll lose at least 20 pounds" resolution!
hey, girl. i'm back. (and btw, i just saw that lisa commented on your post! she's a bloggy friend of mine!)
anyway, check out this post from The Goat and the Kid.
http://thegoatandthekid.blogspot.com/2009/12/each-year-i-have-word.html#comment-form
this is a blog i enjoy, and it made me think of you. i'm searching for my word...
Oh my goodness... I adore this post. Yes... just to be. Not to be this that or the other just being who God has made me to be. I LOVE this. So true and liberating, I must say. :) Nancy
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